What I want most of all is to raise my children to be somebody.

I know, you may think, if you had no money, how could you think of having two children? The point is that I was not in this situation when I had my first child nor when I got pregnant, I had a business, a house, medium stability? Some time ago a "needy" family came to me for a loan of money, having small children and putting myself in their place, I gave it to them, it was all my savings, at that time I did not know that I was pregnant again and that I was going to need it later, when I asked them for it, they treated me horribly and left the place, my small business went bankrupt, and I was homeless, with many debts, so I had to return to my parents' house in a very bad position, I rented a room to keep my things, when I recovered from the delivery, my surprise was that they had ransacked it, they even took my clothes, I was left with the few maternity clothes I had at my parents' house, My parents are elderly and with the last earthquakes in my country, My father has always said that the only person he cares about is himself and that we stole space, my mother is a very bitter woman because of my father's greed and his infidelities, so her only undoing is to get rid of the house, my mother is a very bitter woman because of my father's greed and his infidelities, so her only undoing is to get rid of the house, so her only undoing is to make other people's lives as miserable as possible, she always insults me and tells me things to discourage me from studying, she leaves my children without eating on days when she gets up in a bad mood, no matter what they are, they are my parents and I want to get out of their house and move out, my ex-husband left me with the children and went with another woman he doesn't want to give them anything they say that men divorce their children when they leave their wife, and apparently it's true, What I want most is to get my children ahead, to finish my studies, to be someone for them, no matter how hard I look for a job if you don't have a cradle anywhere they give it to you, please help me I am desperate I am afraid for my babies I am afraid for myself, I want to be someone that they will be proud of I want to send them to school and I don't even have enough money for tuition, for their clothes, God knows I need help.