Please, if you can help me

Hello everyone,

My name is Anna, I am 31 years old and I am studying a degree, I am a single mother of a girl and I currently work from home making designs.

I don't even know how to start, I feel like I'm taking someone's place away by doing this and that I should put up with it but I'm desperate.

9 years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar Syndrome and I entered a not cheap treatment financed by my mother, I stopped the medication because I had been a mother for 1 year and the medicine did not allow me to concentrate on caring for my baby it made me very sleepy all day day and my dad continually told me that he was ashamed that my happiness depended on some pills, I fooled myself thinking that I could get ahead on my own but it hasn't worked, I can't keep a stable job.

My daughter is already 10 years old and I don't want to ruin her life with my sad, manic and weak mind, I need therapy that I can't afford to pay for, I want her to grow up mentally healthy so that she can achieve everything she sets out to do

I feel like my life is over and I haven't achieved anything and I have no idea how to go on, I only survive for her to give her food, shelter, attention and a good education and honestly I can't handle everything I feel like I'm giving up.

I do this to get funds for my therapy and for my daughter, I'm sure I've done something wrong and maybe she's not growing up healthy, I don't know, I want to be able to do something for myself, I know there's something good and we can do something when all the crap my mind tells me is cured, please, and only if my story doesn't seem ridiculous and meaningless to you, I would appreciate your support.

Thank you very much in advance.